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July 17, 2017

I quit medical school, but it's not the end: Encouragement Weekly Photo Challenge #13 and 14

Proverbs 3:5-6

Life is full of uncertainties.

We’ve heard about this countless of times, but still we are convinced that amidst all the uncertainties, we are in control. Eventually reality strikes, making us realize that we can never be in full control.

This reality has struck me recently, and I was not prepared for the twists and turns that came. In fact, my life’s still twisted and tangled because of the past year’s events.

All my life I imagined myself to become a doctor. To be specific, a surgeon, like my dad. It was my dream to wear that long white coat, and those pine green scrubs; to serve the country by serving others. 

Since grade school, everything went as planned. My good exam-taking abilities landed me a slot in the Philippine Science High School Southern Mindanao Campus*. This gave me a good foundation to get into the BS Biology program of the University of the Philippines Diliman*, and eventually the University of the Philippines College of Medicine*. My life seemed to be going perfectly. Not bragging, but I know there would be people who would have wanted to trade places with me. 

When I got into medical school, I realized that it’s way different than my expectations. That long white coat is still at the end of a seemingly endless dark tunnel, where you can't see dangers being hurled at you. I realized that my desire to pursue a career in medicine is all up in the clouds. It was a fantasy, a fairy tale, and I was not prepared to face the reality that maybe, it isn't for me.

In my 3 years and 4 months in medical school, I realized that intelligence is not enough to get you a medical degree. The seemingly great “return of investment” of pursuing a career in medicine, is not enough to keep you going. It takes more than that. Becoming a good doctor takes genuine concern for others. In fact, someone told me that someone told her that you don’t go to medicine for money, fame, not even prestige. You do medicine for people and service.

Those who truly know me know that I'm not the type who gives up easily. Though disillusioned, I tried to push myself to persevere, and to do my best to learn and improve. I might have pushed myself so hard to get to the point of breaking. The time eventually came when I was sure that I’d rather die than face another day pursuing the path I was going. That’s when I decided it isn’t worth it anymore. I quit.

It’s been a struggle keeping myself together since I made the decision. I know about my responsibilities to my family and my country. However I have become a danger to myself and I needed to take the time off to think about the things that has transpired and what can be done to make my life livable. 

Others may think that I’m a failure because I quit the race. However, I believe that becoming a doctor is not THE race of my life. MY LIFE is the race, and I’m not quitting. I’m still running to see what’s at the end of all of this.

It’s scary. I don’t know what’s coming, but despite all of these things, I put my trust in the Lord. I believe that He can make something beautiful out of the mess that has become of my life.

Press on to finish the race

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*The Philippine Science High School System and the University of the Philippines System are considered to be among the best educational systems in the Philippines

July 13, 2017

Blogger Recognition Award v1.0

Hi guys! I've been on a blogging break since June 19 and to celebrate my comeback, I will reveal in a few, the 15 bloggers that I nominate for the Blogger Recognition Award. Before that, I would like to extend my gratitude to Malalai Sana of Secrets of Greatest Minds for nominating me, and saying this about my blog:

"Karla, when I read your blog I feel calm from then inside. I love the colors that you use. I love reading your posts. I am really happy that you joined my group Bloggers for Bloggers."

It's now my turn to spread the appreciation and nominate others.

But first, what is the blogger recognition about anyway?

July 10, 2017

Blog Announcements: July-September 2017

Hi guys! I'm back!

I've been on a blogging break since June 19, 2017. The intention was to prevent blogger burn out. I wanted to have time to think about the dynamics of my blog and find ways to improve it. Honestly, I've not come up with as much new content as I wanted, but at least I was able to start a list of ideas for blog entries.

I admit I was gone for too long because I'm finding it difficult to get back to my laptop's keyboard. In fairness, the break wasn't for naught because it helped me realise how much I enjoy blogging. I'm more sure that of blogging than I ever was.

Now that I'm planning to emerge from my break, I will be making a few announcements regarding my blogging schedule. Here are the things that you can expect from my blog in the coming weeks:

June 19, 2017

Coffee Break: Blogger Burnout Prevention

Prevent Blogger Burnout

I'm a subscriber of Courtney Helena's Blog and her latest email is about tips on how to prevent blogger burnout. It included points like slowing down on post frequency and on social media promotions, etc. The tips were very helpful and one action step that I'm going to take as an application is to have a regular Coffee Break.