September 11, 2017

On Forgiveness - Encouragement Weekly Photo Challenge #21


Bible verse - Colossians 3:13




For the first 25 years of my life, I toiled to follow the footsteps of my parents who were both doctors. My plan: Finish medical school, specialize, subspecialize, then serve the country. One straight path.

Honestly, during those years, especially the last few, I felt like I was a horse with blinders, being driven into a path somebody else has chosen for me. It was chosen, even before I existed and it did not matter whether it was what I really wanted, because it was my "destiny".

Every day I'd question, what I was doing with my life. From the outside it seemed to be unfolding perfectly. From the inside however, it was in shambles.

I tried my best to be okay, shrugging off self-doubt, thinking it's all in my head. However, the negative thoughts would not go away. They were there to stay.

I pushed myself, but no effort could ever suffice. I was always inadequate, or so society, myself included, made me feel.

Day by day, my energy drained. I'd climb up, but slide back, there was no moving forward.

Finally I decided to be true to myself. The path I was pursuing is not what I want. I don''t want a straight path. I want a twisted, tangled, sinuous path.

I made my decision and now I'm acting on it, and people think I'm crazy to be squandering the privileges I was given. It's heartbreaking to leave the life I led for the past 25 years. Add other people's reaction, then it's crushing.

It felt as if breaking up with a lover. My heart torn to pieces. However, the pain shook away the blinders. The blinders fell, and now I can see what's surrounding me.

Flowers and butterflies, rainbows and streams, wonderful sights, I have never seen. Infinite possibilities now await me.  I'm ready to live a life free from the bitterness and the pain. Finally, I'm ready to forgive. Ah! What an exciting life!

Colossians 3:13
Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.

Is there someone you're struggling to forgive? I pray that by God's grace you'll be ready. Forgiveness can set us free.
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15 comments:

  1. Happy birthday then. Sometimes we can't help but to break some to build some.

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    1. HAHA! I got confused about the greeting at first but eventually got it! HAHA! Thank you so much!

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  2. I think life gives us the types of challenges we need to grow spiritually. So no matter how hard we try to work on a certain path, circumstances will either work for us or against us in order to bring us to the destiny where we are meant to be.

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    1. Yes Marisse! Thanks! Words of wisdom from Marisse the Wise <3

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  3. Same. I was born in a decent chinese family. One and only daughter and heir to my dad's spare parts business. My dad keep forcing me to learn the business. I knew i was already going to take this business in the future. However i never liked it. I tried to avoid it as much as possiblem. I was truly passionate about arts and i wanted to create my own artist career. At first my dad didnt approve of it. He despised art. I was forced to take baking and go to a baking school, but it was a blessing in disguise that i didnt continued to study at that school. I never even made it on the first day. Instead, god gave me a blessing to choose the passion i truly desire. And with mg mom's help, we discovered the perfect school for me near school. It was also coordinated to what i want. Arts and technology at ciit. I know its the past. I resent my dad for forcing me. But nows the time to forgive :)

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    1. *hugs! I'm glad things are starting to fall into place. I'm happy for you Charlotte! Sometimes dads just need to process things, and accept that not everything they planned for their children will happen in the way they want it to. :) Had the same issue with my dad. We're now okay :)

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  4. Lovely article. I'm glad you realised this before it was too late. Many people get so far in, that they believe too much time has passed to give up. To move on to what they really love. I'm happy for you.

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    1. Thank you so much! I'm just so grateful for everything that's happening in my life right now :)

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  5. Follow your heart's endeavors and you will never be wrong. Of course with God's grace. Keep on encouraging others!

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  6. I love this! It can truly be so hard to give up everything you've worked for to follow your heart, but it's SO worth it.

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  7. What an inspiring, and enlightening article! That's the attitude-- be true to yourself and the rest will follow into place. No better place to be happy than where you want to be. Awesome article. Keep on thriving beautiful!

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